Autumn is my muse. I’m enthralled with it every single day. I can’t help but capture it. It’s a film of transition, a lesson in life. Constantly inconsistent. Just when you get comfortable, everything changes. Nature says, don’t stand still… keep going… aging… evolving, like the tide of a river.

in need of color

winter is here! goodness it’s cold out there!

there are very few leaves left on trees and yet i feel in desperate need of color. so let’s remember those last glorious days of autumn.

in need of color

see you tomorrow with another colorful autumny photo. after all, i think we all need more color right now, don’t we?

the best kind of mail

Last week, I got a new camera in the mail. My awesome friend Emily texted me awhile back asking me if I wanted a Polaroid 101 and I immediately responded with a YES!!!

While I knew it was coming, I was so excited when I opened the box it came in. It’s a lovely machine, in amazing condition, with the original instruction manual. I immediately posted this photo on instagram cause I just had to share my excitement.

And I started to take it apart to see what I needed to do to get it working and how to work it (the manual was a big help). I quickly learned I needed a new battery, which the internet claimed difficult to find. So I put a call out to my photo friends and found out that I could get the battery at almost any photo store in town (whew!) or I could get it modified to take 3 AA’s (also locally). I love my photo friends, they’re all so helpful. So off I went to get supplies… and here are my best shots from my first pack of film through the camera.

I started shooting almost immediately after leaving Pro Photo Supply. Seriously, folks, I could barely contain myself and I was excited to see what this baby could do!

This last one I took in the afternoon the following day. It turned out nothing like I was hoping for but I still like it. I have to learn the limits of this new tool and this is how you do it.

What I did learn from this pack of film is that it’s a great camera and it’s in amazing shape. The colors in the film are so vibrant, the focus is lovely. I can’t wait to put another pack through it.

A huge thank you to my dear friend Emily. This is one of the best gifts I have ever received.


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admiring autumn

Here are some shots of this gorgeous autumn that is happening around me. I love the light this time of year. It is all glowy and bright most days.


A few days ago I walked along the edge of the lake and was treated to the crunch and rustle of leaves with each step I made. The acoustics of this season are different and all sounds, no matter how hushed, are as crisp as autumn air.—Eric Sloane

I hope you are taking some moments to soak in the color. It will be gone before we know it! Which makes me sad cause I love all this color.

november sighs

the thing is

to love life, to love it even
when you have no stomach for it
and everything you’ve held dear
crumbles like burnt paper in your hands,
your throat filled with the silt of it.
When grief sits with you, its tropical heat
thickening the air, heavy as water
more fit for gills than lungs;
when grief weights you like your own flesh
only more of it, an obesity of grief,
you think, How can a body withstand this?
Then you hold life like a face
between your palms, a plain face,
no charming smile, no violet eyes,
and you say, yes, I will take you
I will love you, again.

by Ellen Bass (via the writer’s almanac)

happy accident

After I finished this roll, I accidentally wound the film the wrong way and it tore off the canister. I was in a panic, as I was in Seattle on a mini-vacation and already late for meeting up with a friend. So I took a deep breath and went into a closet and pulled out the film then frantically made a hodge-podge semi-dark container to keep it in until I got home. At that point, I buried it in my bags and just hoped that I hadn’t ruin the whole roll. I ended up getting 18 out of 24 shots. Not too shabby.

But, the best part? Look at those gorgeous light leaks. Happy accident, for sure.

under the weather

it’s raining right now and i haven’t been feeling well this week. but i am excited that autumn is almost here. it certainly feels like it’s here already.

Every leaf speaks bliss to me,
Fluttering from the autumn tree.
Emily Bronte