the circles of my mind

hello new year. my, that whole thing they tell you about time accelerating as you age. it’s so true. i’m actively trying to appreciate each day. to stay present but whoosh, it just keeps rushing past.

january

i’m trying out that 1 second a day app, as a way to remember the actual days and the tiny things that happen. i guess i’m using it how i used to use film photography.

oh the things i ache to do but struggle to prioritize.

i miss shooting 35mm film daily but i don’t see the world as i used to. can i go back? did becoming a professional photographer ruin my joy in the hobby of it? the cost can be prohibitive but it’s so much better than digital. the feel of it is so special.

i don’t know what to do with the images that i have made on film these last few years. i used to blog them or share them on social media but now i overthink it too much and since it takes me years or month to develop it, it just don’t seem timely.

sept

last month, i took advantage of a holiday sale and i made these postcards with some of my favorite images i haven’t previously shared online. i am trying to create art again without having an agenda. or rather, without shutting myself down. my mind is a battlefield sometimes.

this is a good place to share that journey. i don’t want to make any promises because i’m a big dreamer and sometimes i get overly ambition and struggle to follow through.

maybe writing this old blog is a hobby i return to this year. only time will tell. but the thought of it makes me smile.

november

natural close-up

i’m a big lover of nature.
there is so much beauty in this world.
plant life never ceases to amazing me.
the variety and vibrance feels infinite. Continue reading “natural close-up”

I can’t even 

Today was roller coaster. I need to process it. I didn’t see this coming.

Continue reading “I can’t even “

we drink wine on sundays 

I can’t think of a better way to spend Sunday than going wine tasting with my dad and stepmom in wine country. We tried almost a dozen wines and had lots of laughs and delicious food along the way. It was a beautiful day.

Cheers!

NYC, initial musings

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Large. Diverse. Work in progress. So many details. So much everything. Vibrant. More than I can contain with words. Wow. Speechless. Love.

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OBSERVATIONS

People hang out in the streets. Like pull a chair out and sit on the sidewalk for hours or just stand in a corner or sit on a stoop. Every place outside is a public place.

People are beautiful. They also wear a fair amount of sweat pants. Everybody has an iPhone, in their hand.

Manhatten is twice as expensive to eat and drink in than Brooklyn. Brooklyn feels like Portland but with more brownstones and people of color. I love the diversity here, it’s so refreshing.

Most of the coffee here is from Portland or Seattle. (Starbucks is disgustingly everywhere, ew!)

It feels like there are fewer homeless people here than Portland.

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RANDOM

I’ve walked more this week than I have in a long time. It’s awesome and harder than I thought it would be. My tiny little legs…getting me 7-10 miles in a day.

I’m learning the subway system. So fun and fascinating!

I still feel like I’m on west coast time and I’ve been here for a week!

I have such a feeling of possibility before me.

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. all photos taken with iPhone 6+ . first afternoon here . september 25, 2015 . edited using vscocam . #nessayayvacay .

tiny beautiful things

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People from a planet without flowers would think we must be mad with joy the whole time to have such things about us.
―Iris Murdoch

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photographs made during a wander around Astoria in earlier this month | canon 30d | 28mm

the peony farm

Last week, I took at trip to Adelmen Garden Peony Paradise (!!!) with three talented lady friends: Jessica, Linnea, and Chelsea. It was such a gorgeous day in an equally gorgeous place.

I only took my digital camera (I’ve decided I need to hone my digital skills) and my mamiya. I promise to share the film shots later. I decided to play around with VSCO film (digital emulsion) for these, another thing I am getting familiar with.

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So enjoy this wander into the fields. Oh peonies, you so pretty.

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I hope you are having a great week!

#tobendandback

Hey friends,

If you know me on instagram, then you know that every other friday night I post a lot of #tobendandback photos.

You see, every other friday during the school year, my boyfriend and I make a pilgrimage from Portland to Bend, Oregon then turnaround and come back. We go there for the explicit reason of picking up his son, who lives there, and bringing him home with us for the weekend. This is about 3.5 hours each way, which makes for seven straight hours in the car! It’s like going on a road trip and ending up in the same place you started at the end of the ride. Not my favorite way to spend a friday night but it is beautiful and I sure do love that kid we pick up, always a treat to have him back with us again. Here’s the routes we take, to give you a feel for the kind of terrain we cover.

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So, just over a year ago, I decided that I should make a bit of a project out of this trip and take photos along the way and post them on instagram. I have to say making these photos have made the trips more fun and my iPhone photography skills have improved greatly along the way. If you go back to the beginning of that tag (#tobendandback), you can see how much I have improved. I am starting to find it more of a challenge as I don’t want to post the same image over and over again. I use the vscocam app for a lot of my shots, I really love the filters they have and the ability to adjust exposure, highlights, etc to help make the photos more accurate to what I saw (I do wish the app was a bit faster though, sigh).

Here is just a sampling of my photos in this series (in no particular order).

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Sometimes we stop along the way and see the sights a bit, but most of the time (and the majority of all the shots in this series) we just stay in the car and get through the trip. All I can say is, at least, it’s a pretty ride.

Follow along again this friday on instagram (I’m @nessavay) for more of this series.

the portland tram

Back during spring break, Cal, Josh & I went for a ride on the Portland tram. It was the first time for all of us. It was fun, an little excursion. I had also never been to OHSU’s campus on the hill before, it’s really beautiful up there. We were blessed with a gorgeous sunny day in March.

Here are a couple images I made along the way with my Polaroid Spectra and some Impossible Project PZ680 film.

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See you next week!

by car, by boat, by foot

Just over a week ago, my boyfriend Cal & I, my Dad & his girlfriend Diane, and a couple of my Dad’s running friends (Dana, Mary Lou, & Ron) all travelled up to Victoria, B.C. to run some road races. Cal & I ran the 8k road race; Dad, Dana & Ron ran the half-marathon. Mary Lou and Diane were our cheerleaders. The weather was amazing the whole time and we all had so much fun.

I took this whole roll that day starting with the ferry ride. I took many more photos along the way but I thought sharing this one roll, taken over about 8 hours on the first day of our trip was a nice way to tell this story. It has the feeling of an adventure.

It was a lovely 4.5 hour drive to Port Angeles, then an hour and a half ferry ride into Victoria. I fell a bit in love with the look of the water from the Ferry.

We got into Victoria around 3 p.m. We all stayed at the Empress(!) so we got off the ferry and checked right into our hotel.

 

How awesome is my boyfriend for carrying my bag there? He’s pretty awesome.

 

 

The shot below is the view from our room. I love all the ivy growing on the Empress. Such a gorgeous place.

And this next photo was the view from my Dad & Diane’s room. I wanted to go check out this little courtyard but never got a chance too. Next time!

Aren’t these old ships awesome? I would love to take a trip on one.

We took a trip to Spinnakers on one of the little harbor taxi’s, so fun!

Had to have a beer, to try out the local brews… I went for the tasting option. 4 beers instead of 1.

This was the view from our table at Spinnakers. Not too shabby.

We headed out just as the sun was setting. We had a long walk back to our hotel and once the sun was down, it really started to cool off.

It was a perfect first day in Victoria. I hope to share more photos from the trip here soon.

All photos in this post were made with my Olympus OM-2n, 50mm 1.8 lens and a roll of Kodak Ektar 100 film.

maryhill

Where can you find an art museum, a winery & a replica of stonehenge within a mile of each other? Why Maryhill, Washington, of course!

It’s such an unexpected place. My parents took me there when I was a wee child and I have fond memories of it. I have always meant to return there. Last September, just over labor day, my dad invited us to go visit with him and his girlfriend (now fiancé). We willingly took him up on it. (Us and we always means my boyfriend Cal & I. :)

Here is what we saw on that gorgeous, late summer day.

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